YOSHIYA 'JOSHUA' KIRYU
COURT Seelie
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OCCUPATION Composer
ABLE TO FAST-TRAVEL Teleportation - Restricted to Glaschu; Wings - Can be made physical at will
COMMUNICATION METHODS Compass purchased from Hermione Granger.
RESIDENCE IN 2,701 Caer Glaem
RESIDENCE IN 2,702 Possibly Caer Glaem
MAJOR EVENTS
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PLANS
Joshua will be keeping his eyes and ears peeled for information of all sorts. For the most part, this will be a year of adjustment for him as he gets used to his power caps and being more mortal than he used to be. He's also going to be annoying people staying in relative contact with people he's already met (or will meet) on either side. !!!IF YOU WISH TO PLAN ANYTHING WITH JOSHUA, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO PM THIS JOURNAL FOR FURTHER DISCUSSION!!!
SUMMARY OF KNOWN DETAILS
He's going to meet the Black Shuck for the first time and have a lovely conversation with him. Joshua will also accomplish being on somewhat good terms with Hiro Hamada and Sansa Stark. He's going to pester the hell out of Hiro, mark his words.
TIMELINE OF EVENTS
| SPRING IN 2,701 (Mar, Apr, May) |
- MARCH - He'll delve into a small part of his powers in order to help out the natives and maybe some other Shardbearers. Joshua may or may not take great pleasure/amusement out of this.
- APRIL - Wow he is so not down with losing control like that. Joshua is going to instantly destroy his harp the moment he finds it in his dreams. Nobody, not even himself, wants a wild, out-of-control-emotionally Joshua. Good thing nobody he knows from his world is here, jfc.
- MAY - You know what's useful? Swans that turn into gold on death. Hell yes, he'll kill some swans and help out. Hopefully use their gold corpses as currency.
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| SUMMER IN 2,701 (Jun, Jul, Aug) |
- JUNE - Josh's participating in the Magic Dueling part of Treun's Tourney! Otherwise, he'll just be a spectator. Joshua, sadly, doesn't think he'll be of use to anyone wanting to heal the areas affected by the Jabberwock, but if asked for advice, then he'll try to give theories/something.
- JULY - He's going to keep his wits about him more-so than usual. He'll be interested in looking into these rumors about that Shardbearer creating the fox masks and any other information people dig up on the guy.
- AUGUST - Joshua will visit the Cothromach to take a look at what Sansa's got planned! He'll also look in on the festivities at Leathann, probably on the roof of some building.
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| FALL IN 2,701 (Sept, Oct, Nov) |
- SEPTEMBER - Well, hopefully people know either English or Japanese, else they'll never understand what the heck he's saying. He might be insulting your mother for all you know.
- OCTOBER - FUCK YEAH SAMHAIN TIME TO MEET THE DEATH DOG AND PAY HIS RESPECTS!!!!
- NOVEMBER - Some poor schmuck is probably going to try roughing up this pretty boy. Pity it's going to backfire tremendously on them as Joshua cheerfully hands them over to the Leathann authorities
or send their souls to Black Shuck and give the authorities their dead bodies, whichever
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| WINTER IN 2,701/2,702 (Dec, Jan, Feb) |
- DECEMBER - Nah. Hunting and sweating? Nah. Nah, man.
- JANUARY - Joshua turns a year older as of January 1st!
- FEBRUARY - He'll be going to the Ostara Festival in Parrais. Art and music call to him, though he won't participate. Joshua will merely enjoy what the artists and musicians will bring to the occasion.
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| SPRING IN 2,702 (Mar, Apr) |
- MARCH - Time to behead some skeletons and get in touch with his inner Queen of Hearts!
- APRIL - What the actual fuck, fairies.
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A lot can happen in a year. [His tone is mild as he says this.] It would be a hard thing to forget, considering we were all emotionally assaulted by a dream harp.
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[He snorts a little in response.] I mean besides that. The other stuff. Do you remember that? We sort of talked about a lot.
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[He shrugs casually.]
We did, indeed, talk about a lot. I do remember the subjects previously discussed that eventful morning in April.
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You couldn't make this easy on me just this once? [He switches the coffee cup to the other hand, using the first to prop his head up.]
Let's just say the tiger uncaged itself and mauled several people but curled up against several other people. I'm not sure how to fix it but...there are parts maybe I don't want to fix? When I wrote to you during Yule I thought "hey, I can talk to Joshua and prove that I've grown and that everything's fine" but...that was months ago. And I've had a lot of things come up since then but I didn't want to tell you in letters. They're too important.
Is that bad?
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No, it's not bad.
[Hey, a rare, simple, to-the-point answer from Yoshiya Kiryu! Hell apparently does have ice on occasion.
Joshua takes another sip of his tea before gesturing with his free hand toward Hiro.]
Tell me what's happened.
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There's a deep inhale as he thinks of where to even start. Unpacking all of the pieces is a delicate manner, after all.]
Do you want me to start from when I started putting myself in jeopardy, or skip right to the part where I met the Black Shuck?
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From the top, of course. Pretend I know absolutely nothing.
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Okay. Let's start in...February, I guess. When we first got here. ["We" because he knows Josh arrived the same time he did.] You know how the whole battle happened and we were all kind of screwed...mostly us. [Seelie...] And I know you know about the locket post I made at the end of the month.
...you weren't the only Seelie to comment. You weren't even the only Seelie to comment that I talked to for a really long time. There were a few of them, actually, but there was somebody in particular that sort of really made me stop and think about things. We're the same age and we've had a lot of the same experiences, and we both...kind of just get it. I only talked to him that one time and then everything went down in May and I lost contact with pretty much everybody.
You heard about the tournament in Treun, right? [Wait, hold on.] Let me back up a second. So...you remember everything in April and everything we talked about. In May I went to find somebody really important to me...his name's Jason. He's probably--no, actually? He is the most important person to me here and I basically did something really stupid just to try to find him. And that stupid thing made him really mad and we kinda fought a lot when I did find him and he hit on a lot of the same points you did. I can't handle everything by myself. But you guys didn't really think I wouldn't try, did you? [There's a pause.] Thinking about it now, I sort of wish I didn't try. But basically? I promised Jason I'd stay back and stop trying to do everything and stay where I was to stay safe, basically. And I wish I hadn't promised him that because I broke that promise pretty much a month later. ["And I actually feel really, really bad about it."]
Anyway so the tournament was in June and that was the first time I broke my promise to Jason. I hitched a ride out there, set up a betting pool, watched my friends fight..it was fine. Everything was fine until the natives got mad I was cheating them out of their gold and so I ran. I ended up running and it's funny...it's almost like this was pre-written destiny or something, if you believe in that kind of thing. I don’t think I do. I would rather choose my own destiny than have it pre-written but anyway, I ran into that Seelie I told you about. The one who understood things. He was a fighter in the Melee but I think we both sort of recognized each other immediately.
…his name’s Nico. And he’s somehow gone from being “zombie controller who helped attack our castle and my friends” to “guy who knows exactly what it’s like to be me on some days” to “someone I want to spend more time with willingly and force him to watch Disney movies” to “one of the better friends I’ve ever had in my life.” And you know what? I’m kind of scared of that still. Anyway so I ran into Nico and he shadow-traveled us out into hiding and we hung out for a while and I didn’t die. That’s the point. Let’s cut to August when I got back from a trip up north…Nico found me at the Station and asked if I wanted to go to Leathann to see the festival of lights. That’s the second time I broke my promise to Jason. I disappeared with Nico for a week.
Right after my birthday I saw Nico again and he gave me something so we could stay in touch. It’s kind of personal and I don’t know how many people know about it but we’ve been using it to communicate. It’s different than the network I set up for my friends and I. This just seems…safer? I guess? Anyway so one time we were talking and he told me about the Black Shuck and he never really specified everything but he said he had to apologize for something. And…it’s big. And when you do big things, you shouldn’t have to do them alone. So I told him I’d come with him. I made another promise that I’d stick with him no matter what Shuck did so we made a plan to see him during Samhain. …that’s the second time I wonder if I should have ever promised anything.
So I don’t see Nico for several months but I’m spending time with my own friends learning things…someone taught me how to fight with a dagger. Jason was teaching me physical combat. And I was doing a ton of reading and researching on my own. So at Samhain we meet up and we go see Shuck. He wasn’t mad. He was just disappointed…and so to make up for it, he decided to send Nico on a mission for him. Problem with that is that he sent me, too. And like I said, I promised Nico that I’d stick around for everything because that’s what you do for friends.
[Screw it, you know what, he’s just going to shift in his chair so that he’s sitting sideways with his legs dangling over one arm and his head and upper back resting against another so he can stare at the ceiling.]
Nico was pretty sold on telling me I couldn’t come with him. It was too dangerous and I didn’t know anything about taking down the dead and he didn’t want me risking it because he wasn’t sure he could keep both of us safe. So…we ended up running into another friend of mine. Name’s Loki. Yeah, that Loki. I’m not as clever as I thought I guess because Loki’s been tracking me for months and knew where I was going when I’d leave to see Nico. So Nico opens his fat mouth and tells Loki pretty much everything about what the Shuck is having us do and Loki agrees with me that it’s better not to piss Shuck off. Which is true.
Nico gets started without me and Loki and I sort of argue about it. I think the point was, and I quote, “this is the stupidest thing I’ve ever done.” And…maybe he’s right. Maybe this was stupid but I couldn’t bail. I also couldn’t let Loki tell Jason before I told Jason because Jason would get mad so I promised Loki I’d tell him soon.
Broken promise number three. [There’s a thick swallow as he clears his throat. It’s obvious he’s not used to laying it out like this and it’s also clear that he’s starting to hit the bigger part of the story.] …around Yule, Nico sends me a present and one of the things is a dagger. One thing kinda led to another and I basically bullied him into taking me with him after Yule to start fulfilling Shuck’s task. Nico’s like “I’m going to train you really hard” and blahblahblah and tells me about his powers and just…[He bites his lip.] …he trusts me. Nico doesn’t trust a lot of people, but he trusts me. [“And I trust him. That’s the problem.”] Since we were leaving I knew I had to tell Jason…so I called Jason and tried to explain everything. You can imagine how that went. He was really mad that I was going to do this, really mad that Nico’s a Seelie and mostly really mad that I wasn’t listening to him. I never listen to him. But then he asked if I was ready to join Tadashi and I just sort of lost it and hung up on him and left…and Jason broke the device I gave him so I lost contact with him for months.
January was spent traveling with Nico alone and being trained. He kinda kicked my ass a lot and I think he probably enjoyed it because he’s kind of a jerk sometimes, too. But I can’t say the same wouldn’t be true if it was the other way around. He’s a good teacher though. I could probably flay somebody open without blinking now. [You know, as long as they’re dead. Or something. Ahaha let’s not try to murder people.] Anyway we traveled and Nico did his ghost thing and I was helping catch some of the others in jars until we could lay them to rest like Shuck asked and then around February we realized I needed to figure out how to do this myself. We can’t always be together…so I split and headed for Redgate with my friend Billy. And…Billy and I kinda talked about stuff, and Billy’s from the same world as Loki so we went to see Loki in Redgate because he’s a professor there and so I talked to Loki about some stuff that’s not really important and got information I needed and then I heard rumors about a woman in Mair. So…that’s where I went next. She taught me a lot, too. And after that? Nico picked me up and we were back to where we started, but this time I was a lot more useful. You know me. I like learning things and trying to take on everything myself but…Nico and I are a really, really good team.
The whole month of March was just spent with the two of us being ghostbusters or whatever and a few weeks ago at the end of it we came here to restock and just regroup. Let’s go back to the idea of pre-written destiny. Jason showed up. He…wasn’t really happy. [That’s an understatement.] …making a long story short? He basically told Nico that I was just using him and that the monarchs were going to kill him. Nico tried to explain but like…when Jason’s mad, he doesn’t listen to reason. And I can’t really say I was rational about it either, so…[A shrug.] He left.
[There’s a slight sniff because that’s probably the most recent.] Jason flipped out, left, and I chased after him on Nico’s hellhound and I tried to apologize but it wasn’t working because…because I was still blaming my problems on Jason instead, I guess. [That’s really what it was.] He says he’s going to turn me into Morla but right now? I don’t know if it matters. I don’t know if any of it matters because I have to finish this and I already lost Jason anyway. …well, sort of. I mean he told me how I could fix everything and try again but it means going home.
[He finally turns his head to look at Joshua again.] I haven’t been “home” since the end of Yule because I can’t leave Nico and I don’t know why. I don’t know how to get rid of the target on my back, I don’t know how to fulfill the task and get everybody to just chill out and how to apologize and how to fix it. That’s it. I don’t know how to fix this one. So…it sucks. I really, really wanted to show you that things had changed since last year but I think I just made everything worse and nothing makes sense anymore.
[“And I feel awful about it.” He finally stops though. That…it’s most of everything, barring some details he’s sure Joshua will worm out of him when he starts picking apart the story, but it’s definitely enough to be a drain on him and he just drops his eyes back to the floor. Now comes the hard part. The waiting. Waiting for Joshua to say something and waiting for the results.]
Kinda makes you wish you still didn’t know anything, huh?
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Eventually, he's ready to give a 'verdict' and mine for more information.]
I must admit, that's an impressive way to mess up.
[There's no accusation or mockery in his tone. He just sounds like he's stating a simple fact.]
Before we get into the nitty-gritty, I do need to ask an important question. How have you presented that information to everyone you've mentioned? Jason in particular, since this seems to focus primarily on him and Nico.
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...I haven't. [Well, that's not entirely true.] I mean I have but not all of that all at once. With Jason I made him promise not to get mad and that was probably a bad idea. So...I told him I was leaving the spire, told him I was gonna hunt the dead with somebody and he immediately decided he was gonna go with us. And I told him no. That was the firs tthing that really pissed him off. And I told him about Nico and how Nico's a demigod and knows about death and he still didn't like that and he was mad Nico's Seelie and that I was doing something he didn't think I was capable of and asked if I was ready to join Tadashi and that was about the point I cut him off and told him I didn't care and was leaving.
Loki's been learning in chunks. Billy knows everything Billy needs to know to be updated. But I don't think either of them know about my last conversation with Jason. [A beat.] I was sort of a jerk to Jason the last time I talked to him. And I left a bunch of messages but he never got them because his device was busted, so when we saw each other again a few days ago it was just bad timing combined with both of us being mad about different things.
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Here is how it appears to me. Your timing on giving information, first of all, needs more work. It's like you signed yourself up for a study abroad program, but didn't bother to let your aunt know until about two days before you're scheduled to leave. You gave a promise to stay in one place, which was, admittedly, a rather foolish thing for you to do considering your personality and general disposition for wanderlust. That promise means he's as good as your guardian, though unofficially, until you're released from it.
However, Jason most graciously gave you a chance to have a graceful way out of those particular consequences. Obviously, he must not have phrased it in the best way, but I have no way of knowing for sure since I wasn't there for that conversation. [And only has Hiro's word on it.] In any event, his want to go along with the two of you on your task was where you made your biggest mistake. By saying no, you're essentially telling him that you don't trust his abilities, you don't trust him, and you especially don't want him around for an extended period of time. Of course, it's a moot point if the Shuck specifically told you that it had to be you two alone with no interference by anyone else.
[Joshua hums thoughtfully.]
On the other hand, you could have still let Jason go with you as long as he didn't do anything that would hinder or sabotage your task. Either way, by saying yes, you would've saved yourself a lot of trouble with him.
[Now, he shrugs.]
It's in the past and can't be changed, though. What can change is how you conduct yourself in the future. The damage is salvageable, since Jason's giving you another chance. I'm sure that I don't need to tell you that your relationship won't be able to take another blow like that. You both need to earn each other's trust and respect again.
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...sometimes I think that Jason's like Tadashi, but he's not. Nobody can ever be Tadashi and I shouldn't be holding Jason to those standards because it's not fair to me but it's also not fair to him. I tried to tell him that he couldn't risk a bunch of stuff just to protect me but...that's something I'd tell my brother. Not somebody who's smart enough to do things more carefully and not somebody who wouldn't think things through more carefully before doing something fatal like run into a burning building based on hearsay.
[No more Tadashi. Don't let on how much you still miss Tadashi, Hiro.] Anyway guardian or not I probably could have asked him sooner than this instead of just doing it without saying so thinking I wouldn't get caught. This isn't home. Tadashi always knew where I was because he sewed trackers into my jackets but Jason only knows what I've told him. Loki knew because he was tracking me but he never told Jason.
I...that's not why I said no though. [And he knows Joshua knows that but it's still sort of a problem.] Shuck never really said we couldn't have outside help but I couldn't have Jason risking himself doing this, too. Besides, it was a task for me and Nico. Nobody else. Nobody else needed to get in the middle and it's not about not trusting Jason it's just that I had to do this myself. [And also he didn't want him around for that period because he had a feeling he'd fail a few times and Jason would only be proven right.] So I would have said yes and...what? Jason hauls me back home the minute I show him I wasn't ready for it? No way.
[Here he looks rather put-out because Joshua's right. He can't let his relationship with Jason take another hit. Not like this. He doesn't even know if Jason's really giving him another chance or how long that offer stands.] So how can I do that without ditching my other friends? By going home again it's kinda like telling Nico he's not important, but by staying with Nico it's kinda like telling Jason I don't actually care. Maybe everything was easier when I was operating by myself. I can't lose either of them though.
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By admitting that, you've told me that you don't trust Jason to not let you make your own mistakes and learn from them while in the field. What you don't seem to see is that Jason's presence gives the man the ability to step in and handle the danger himself if it looks as though the enemy is too skillful for you at that point in time. He can't do that while he's in the Spire, now, can he? He certainly wouldn't take kindly to being left behind to twiddle his thumbs and wait for someone to come tell him whether you died or not.
Not to mention, it appears selfish of you to not let him take the risk or decision to put himself at risk to save you just because you don't want him to get hurt or killed. Do you have any right to take those choices away from him?
[He leans forward to rest his chin in one of his hands, propping his elbow up on the table.]
You can't ditch Nico just yet because, from the sounds of it, your task isn't complete. So. As far as I see it, the best solution is to write Jason a letter. Tell him when you plan on going home as exactly as you can, and stress to him that if you don't do this task, then the consequences you face will be worse than your High Queen could ever dream of carrying out. If something comes up, then it is an absolute necessity that you write to tell him what happened and how long of a delay you expect. The key is to keep him informed about your goings on as much as possible, as well as being consistent with your letters. This whole thing started by you keeping him out of the loop. Therefore, the best way to remedy it is by making sure he is in the loop and you can rebuild a foundation of trust.
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--no. No more excuses. He couldn't keep dishing out excuses, that was exactly what the whole problem was. Joshua had made it a little more clear just how bad the whole thing looked and though he's not sure that's how Jason would see it, it makes plenty of sense to him. Damn.] So what you're saying is that I have to trust Jason to intervene where he feels like it so that he can trust me to handle what he thinks I can handle. [There's a loud sigh.] I guess not, but it's not like he'd trust me to do all of this anyway.
The problem is that I keep making bad choices with good intentions. [He'd figured that out a day or two ago.] I don't think it's that Jason's mad I'm doing things. I think...I think he's mad that I'm doing things without really thinking. He yells at me a lot about not thinking. Loki points out that I have to think things through a lot more carefully, too. But...[This is terrible. Everything about this is terrible.] ...I'm used to being able to think things through and having time to do so. Lately I'd been saying yes to things and then realizing it's a bad idea too late. All of this started because I wanted something and was already convinced Jason would say no, so I did it anyway.
[Just like he used to do with Tadashi.]
That's where it became the real problem. Once it was started, why stop? I know that didn't work but it kinda worked for a while.
And you're right, it's not done yet. We've got a long way to go but I don't know if I can make Jason wait that long. I don't even know if I can go home yet. He won't take letters. I'm pretty sure the only way I'll get to get things through to him is by going home and I can't yet. So...I don't know. Maybe I'll try that. I'll figure something out.
[The one thing that's clear though is the sincerity oozing from the conversation. He misses Jason a lot, and he's worried it's damaged beyond repair already. That, and of course, he's actually certain Jason won't listen to him if he doesn't take the bait and actually come home to prove he's capable of listening. Capable of caring about Jason's opinion. He's been awful about proving it lately.]
Definitely a big goal, though.
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[He sighs a little.]
Your decision making needs to be re-tailored for this world, too. You need to look at things from a different angle. Nothing is linear anymore, Hiro. You need to think about how your decision will affect you, the people around you, what consequences you and others may face for the decision, and how it'll continue to affect your future.
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The fact that he had a choice to make now though was just as unsettling.]
...and if I mess stuff up with Nico? What then?
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[Wow, he really wishes he had more tea right now. Serious discussions are thirsty work. Joshua's regretting he didn't bring something with him.]
You haven't broken your trust with Nico before, so you'll have an easier time getting agreement from him. Just don't mess up as you did with Jason.
Also, you say that the two of you have an understanding of each other that most people don't have. If you explain it to Nico, then it's more than likely that he'll agree and understand why you need to do this. On the other hand, I know nothing of this Nico person other than the fact that he's Seelie and apparently has lost a sibling. I would guess an older one?
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Messing up the way he had with Jason would end poorly. And he and Nico did seem to have an understanding most people didn't (which was bizarre in and of itself.)] We sort of talked about the Jason thing after Jason left. Nico's the one who told me to take Clifford and go apologize to him.
[...oh god it's happening again. That weird, twisted feeling in his gut that isn't out of emotional pain but rather something else he wasn't sure he wanted to think about. Thinking about Nico, or having to think of how to explain Nico to people, usually worked him up into a state where he felt his stomach twist and his heart beat a little faster as his brain went into overdrive and a strange, sort of pleased feeling took over.
Why this kept happening when Hiro firmly told his thoughts and emotions "no", he never understood.]
Older sister...sort of the same way Tadashi died. Trying to save somebody else. Nico was ten though. They're demigods so Nico's been sort of outcast his whole life for being a son of Hades which isn't fair since that's kinda not his fault but people treat him differently or are creeped out by his powers. I think I freaked him out when I told him his powers were kinda cool. He's...it's funny. He was born in the 30s but some stuff happened when he was a kid that he got stuck in a timeloop for like seventy years so that's why we're still the same age. He's a few months older than me though. He doesn't trust people very easily and you really have to work at it but when he does trust somebody that's kinda it. We're similar that way. It takes a lot to break trust for him and I haven't managed to do it yet. I've gotta be doing something right.
I don't know, he's just...good to have around. Sometimes I feel like Nico and I are the same person because he gets how my brain works. He gets how to use sarcasm and his sense of humor's kind of twisted but it's okay. Mine probably is, too. And he gets what it's like to want to learn everything in the world. I think he's just as curious as I am about how things work here even though he's been here way longer than me. He's a good storyteller if you can believe that. [A beat.] And he's probably just another reason I'm not dead yet because he's the voice of reason in this mission. Nico and I kind of work that way. He needs to loosen up and I think he thinks I need to calm down. [A mischievous grin.] I haven't told him it's working yet. We're a good team and I know he'd understand if I told him I have to leave for a while but...[And here he stops and he suddenly looks uncertain.] I guess the real thing is that I'm not sure I want to. Not for long anyway. Why can't I have a good balance and keep them both? That's what I want.
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...When he's in private, he's totally going to have a good laugh over this.]
Fate and time have a way of bringing people back together. If you really want to see him more often and to balance everything, then you'll need to understand what sacrifices you need to make in order for that to happen, as well as a general need for discretion. Use that intelligence of yours to find out a good strategy to keep things balanced, and never be afraid to ask for help from the people you trust wholeheartedly to not turn you in for fraternizing with the 'enemy.'
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It's not love. He'll deny it's love. Love's way too powerful and whatever it is that's going on isn't love. It's...something else? A crush, probably. It'll go away, maybe.
...yeah. Yeah, he's been telling himself that for a while now and it's not any closer to the truth, so even when he responds he doesn't notice the forlorn look on his face. And judging by his response, it's clear that he's actively avoiding drawing the conclusion Joshua already has.]
Thought I said I didn't believe in pre-written destinies. Fate falls into that category, too. You can't prove that fate's real. [He rolls his eyes.]
Jason I think wanted to kill him and now he's just going to let your monarch do it. Loki knows and pretty much told me to be discrete. I get it, I need to not be around so much. But there's the whole thing with Shuck and--[Oh forget it. He's just dragging his hands down his face, apparently dropping the veil and just hitting on the real problem.]
What am I doing. What's even happening anymore? [All said from behind his hands.] We're not supposed to be this close. And anyway speaking of fraternizing with the 'enemy', that would mean having to be way more discrete about seeing you, too.
[A thoughtful pause.] But I can go without seeing him. I spent the entire month of February without Nico and it was fine. [Sort of lonely and miserable for various reasons and he was a little too far in the boy's personal space when they teamed up again, but Joshua doesn't need to know that.]
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Well, other than your friend. After all, if he's a demigod, then the Fates are very real, and have spun a cruel life for him in their thread. No Greek hero leads a happy life, at least not for long. The greater the hero, the more tragedy the Fates give them. Though, I hope his fate is more like Odysseus than Achilles, since at least Odysseus had a happier end than most Greek heroes.
Currently, our Monarchs aren't...around, I suppose is the best way of putting it. Only high ranking Seelie have been permitted to see them since May.
[He shrugs like it's no big deal revealing this information to Hiro.]
Perhaps it's because you've been thinking with your heart more than you have with your mind.
[Slight eyebrow raise.] Having some trouble with being separated from Nico, are you?
[It's totally an innocent question, but...it's also Joshua who's asking.]
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...yeah, so I've read. And so I've heard. I've been doing a lot of reading about Greek myth lately. [...Hiro you are seriously an idiot, come on.] I mean I read Homer's work when I was in high school but I've been digging up other stuff to learn more about the myths and the gods. Nico once told me this place is kind of like a nice vacation for them even with the war going on. It's sort of hard to picture. [And it's actually kind of sad.]
Oh yeah? [Carefully. He's treading carefully because he never actually said that Morla was gone, just that Jason wanted to turn him in to her.] Nobody else knows where they are?
[That phrase just causes him to look at Joshua, eyes widening slightly as he lets that sink in. No. Nope. No, bye, nuh-uh. The question doesn't do much else to help either.]
I never said that. [Not in so many words. Why so quick to the defense, Hiro?]
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Homer put it very nicely, I believe. 'A man who has been through bitter experiences and traveled far enjoys even his sufferings after a time.' And I think another applies just as well: 'Be strong, saith my heart; I am a soldier; I have seen worse sights than this.'
Hmm, I would imagine that they're still at Caer Glaem, but there have been no audiences and they're not willing to speak to anyone else. Odd, isn't it, considering how the attack on Caer Scima fared?
[This is making Joshua so gleeful, but luckily he doesn't let that on at all.]
So defensive all of a sudden! It was merely a question.
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I…yeah. [He just sort of blinks in response, not at all missing just how relevant those quotes are. (And not at all missing the fact that Joshua picked those two on purpose. Jerk.)] That's right. [It sort of sucks how well those applied to his entirely life and he's curled up a little staring at his shoes again as he lets those thoughts roll through his head. Things have been rocky for the last couple of months, but…he's seen worse. And he's still doing okay.
What did all of that mean anyway?]
Considering you guys completely obliterated our castle? Yeah. Odd. [The castle's rebuilt now, but he hasn't been back yet. He's not even sure he's ready to go back.] Surprised nobody else has bothered to go look for them.
[There's that tight clench in his chest again, fingers digging into his shin even as he glares at his shoes.] It's a ridiculous question and you know it. [He looks up again.] I could be separated from him as long as I want. You know I can handle things by myself just fine.
[But he doesn't want to. Not anymore. He's torn between asking for help like people keep telling him to do and proving himself like always and that's how things blow up in his face. And with Nico, part of him wants to just tell Joshua to shut up with his questions and part of him wants to admit everything he's already concluded and part of him wants to throw his chair at Joshua and part of him wants to kind of cry and everything's terrible and seriously he was pulled in to fight a war he didn't sign up for, couldn't he have received a pass on having to deal with his complicated emotions? How the hell is this fair? Without realizing it, he drops his gaze again and mumbles under his breath.]
…this isn't fair.
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Now, now, on our side of things, it looked like you unleashed the Jabberwock in retaliation. [Joshua gives Hiro a slightly amused look.] Not to mention, had it been reversed, you, too, would have torn down Caer Glaem's walls. Unswerving loyalty to the Monarchs of your Court, right?
[From anyone else, that question might sound like a mockery. From Joshua, it just sounds like a joke, almost like being completely and totally loyal to them is something to be laughed at.]
Regardless, it's difficult to find an extremely powerful being when they don't want to be found. I'm more interested in finding out who did it, why, and how.
[Someone or something powerful enough to bring even the Monarchs to their knees? It's something to be interested in, and Joshua has no doubts that there might come a time where that power falls into the wrong hands. Still...it's only conjecture that it even exists in the first place.
He almost laughs, however, when Hiro mumbles that.]
Of course not. Nothing is fair. Not life, not war, not even love. I've found that the only fair thing is in death, though even that can vary.
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