[He needed somebody who'd give him flat-out answers. He forgot it came with a price when it comes to Joshua.]
I…yeah. [He just sort of blinks in response, not at all missing just how relevant those quotes are. (And not at all missing the fact that Joshua picked those two on purpose. Jerk.)] That's right. [It sort of sucks how well those applied to his entirely life and he's curled up a little staring at his shoes again as he lets those thoughts roll through his head. Things have been rocky for the last couple of months, but…he's seen worse. And he's still doing okay.
What did all of that mean anyway?]
Considering you guys completely obliterated our castle? Yeah. Odd. [The castle's rebuilt now, but he hasn't been back yet. He's not even sure he's ready to go back.] Surprised nobody else has bothered to go look for them.
[There's that tight clench in his chest again, fingers digging into his shin even as he glares at his shoes.] It's a ridiculous question and you know it. [He looks up again.] I could be separated from him as long as I want. You know I can handle things by myself just fine.
[But he doesn't want to. Not anymore. He's torn between asking for help like people keep telling him to do and proving himself like always and that's how things blow up in his face. And with Nico, part of him wants to just tell Joshua to shut up with his questions and part of him wants to admit everything he's already concluded and part of him wants to throw his chair at Joshua and part of him wants to kind of cry and everything's terrible and seriously he was pulled in to fight a war he didn't sign up for, couldn't he have received a pass on having to deal with his complicated emotions? How the hell is this fair? Without realizing it, he drops his gaze again and mumbles under his breath.]
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I…yeah. [He just sort of blinks in response, not at all missing just how relevant those quotes are. (And not at all missing the fact that Joshua picked those two on purpose. Jerk.)] That's right. [It sort of sucks how well those applied to his entirely life and he's curled up a little staring at his shoes again as he lets those thoughts roll through his head. Things have been rocky for the last couple of months, but…he's seen worse. And he's still doing okay.
What did all of that mean anyway?]
Considering you guys completely obliterated our castle? Yeah. Odd. [The castle's rebuilt now, but he hasn't been back yet. He's not even sure he's ready to go back.] Surprised nobody else has bothered to go look for them.
[There's that tight clench in his chest again, fingers digging into his shin even as he glares at his shoes.] It's a ridiculous question and you know it. [He looks up again.] I could be separated from him as long as I want. You know I can handle things by myself just fine.
[But he doesn't want to. Not anymore. He's torn between asking for help like people keep telling him to do and proving himself like always and that's how things blow up in his face. And with Nico, part of him wants to just tell Joshua to shut up with his questions and part of him wants to admit everything he's already concluded and part of him wants to throw his chair at Joshua and part of him wants to kind of cry and everything's terrible and seriously he was pulled in to fight a war he didn't sign up for, couldn't he have received a pass on having to deal with his complicated emotions? How the hell is this fair? Without realizing it, he drops his gaze again and mumbles under his breath.]
…this isn't fair.