[There's a short lull...and then a frustrated groan. It's times like these he remembers that trying to stall and use excuses on Joshua never works. Ever.]

You couldn't make this easy on me just this once? [He switches the coffee cup to the other hand, using the first to prop his head up.]

Let's just say the tiger uncaged itself and mauled several people but curled up against several other people. I'm not sure how to fix it but...there are parts maybe I don't want to fix? When I wrote to you during Yule I thought "hey, I can talk to Joshua and prove that I've grown and that everything's fine" but...that was months ago. And I've had a lot of things come up since then but I didn't want to tell you in letters. They're too important.

Is that bad?